I'm tired of crying. I'm exhausted. I'm spent. Six years is too long to grieve... When does it stop? How do I make it stop? How do I STOP WANTING to be a victim? How do I STOP saying the same thing over and over?

I know why I do this to myself. I have a great deal of metacognition and self awareness.

A little bit of me wants to attack the ex-wife. She is mean and tries to hurt me. She never met me or Rich. She never met my children.

She tries to use my honesty against me. lol... I used to say to my ACJ students, "NEVER, mistake my kindness for weakness.".

I could and will annihilate her with my words. Afterall, I'm actually a writer with a following!!! Unlike her drivel...lol.

No more energy wasted on her.

I'm tired...